Friday, February 5, 2010

There is a season, turn..

I have been living my days as tediously as can be (subconsiously of course).  Nothing new is happening.. I get up and shower, tidy up my apartment, feed the cat, feed my hub, make dinner, go to work, and come home- all the while thinking about this blog!  I have really drawn blanks lately as to what to update!  I guess I have been feeling like I am incapable of being interesting 100% of the time, and I guess that's ok.  Apart from the fact that I won't be winning a bloggie award any time soon (no bitter feelings there),  I guess I am coming to the conclusion that I am not as complex as I thought I was, and it really bothers me!  I strive to have an interesting life, and I guess I am uncomfortable with being 'normal'.  I watch some great movies, try to be a part of community events, read books, listen to new music, and see research new and upcoming artists and designers- all the while wanting to write about it right here, right now..- yet i haven't.  Why? Besides being a little tired, I build myself up and become consumed with life, not realizing that we are all trying to get somewhere (where? I dunno) but we never stop to smell the roses..

I never stop to smell the roses, yet I wish there were more roses.  I admit to you, all of my friends that I have become boring! Yes boring! I never thought that would happen, but it won't last long I hope, and I guess the first step to change is recognizing the problem (I hate to get all AA on you, but the 12 steps really apply to life not just drinking).  I guess I can sum up all of this confetti in two words.... Bloody February.  I hope to god I see the light by March...

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